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{nonsense- Monday, August 1, 2011 @ 2:19 AM}

Today I "walked" a nostalgic path. If I could leave the house right now, I would ride my bike to the park and wait for you on top of the wooden platform. I'd look out for the figure that sped towards me, and climbed the playground that was obviously too small for him. I would laugh at the stupid name I gave you knowing the meaning of it now, and wonder why you would let me call you that. Dope.

You acted like you cared. I don't give a damn anymore about pointless exchanges, meaningless exchanges. I'm tired of trying so hard at something nonexistent. Just stay out of my life and don't complicate things. Don't lure me with your charms, because all that don't matter without the most important thing of all.

I don't want to see those words again. Those words filled with such anger and hatred. Those words that make me feel so helpless knowing I could have prevented it. Knowing I am also a cause.

I do not want to experience that again. Because to this day, I am still scared shitless.

But you know what, just forget it.