evanescence

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Gotta admit, this year has been the crappiest one so far. The year isn't even over and I can already mark my word on that. When I think about how this whole year started, it feels like 2011 was teasing me. Or maybe it was being kind; I'll never know. I'm not going to say something depressing like, "I don't even know when the last time I was happy was," because I have been happy. There have been many things that made me happy. But it's just so hard to keep up with everyone. It's like a game of dodge ball. You hide behind your teammate, one after the other until you're the last one left. Now the ball's coming at you from left and right, and it's impossible for you not to get it no matter how fast you move. All you can do now is wait for the next round to prove yourself worthy because this first round you were protected by everyone, not even knowing if you have it in you to shine.

Some people say that RPG games are a place for you to run away to- because your own life isn't good enough. I don't disagree with that, but there are a lot of things that you can learn from it as well. It's all a matter of perspective. Every now and then I get this uneasy feeling that makes me want to smash my head against the wall. But the next second, I'm feeling like it was nothing. Because in reality, it was nothing. It was all a matter of perspective and a figment of my imagination. "Good things come to those who least expect it." I shall start believing it like the hopeless fool that I am. I'm going to drop everything and start over. Hello, my name is Yoyo Chan.