Lately, I've come to accept that most of the bad things that happen to me are purely caused by my own deficiency. I have no one to blame but myself. For all the mistakes that I have made, I hope you accept my deepest apologies.

That being said, there is one thing that I will never take the blame for though. Some people say that they finally understand after all the tears and the hurt. I do sincerely believe that, because who doesn't cherish something that they've fought so long and hard for? (Side-tracking for just a bit, I do admit I just dumped everything and left without explaining myself clearly and I do apologize. I don't mind if I am not forgiven because that was my mistake, but I did, and do cherish the good and the bad. I don't regret this because we both know now that this wouldn't have been the best anyway and this was quite a lesson for me even if it wasn't for you.) Continuing on, after all the fucking bullshit you put me through, I thought things could be finally okay. I thought all along I was messing up here and there because I listen to my instincts too much, so I decided to let it go. I foolishly put my trust in your words only to realize I was giving you way too much credit than you deserved. You didn't understand, you didn't give a shit about what I felt. I may be weak, I may be easily swayed, I may have have hurt you in the past but letting you step all over me is not how I will compensate you. I am proud to say, I no longer give a fuck about you and I am willing to throw all that trust I had in you, the friendship, everything down the fucking sewer. Good day.

There are those who say they don't judge and mean it; but there are also those who say they don't judge just so they can get information out of you. Humans are so fucking sick.